I'm past my shelter now, rejoining January, already in progress. I'm back with the whole bloody gamut of emotions. I understand that each of them is a reflection of a different facet of my love for my son, and so I own them—this is the way it goes. Though I still wish anxiety would bugger off. The anniversary, the birthday, they are just around the next bend in this road. Ready or not, here they come. But I think I'm ready.
Read MoreToday's guest post is from a musician who recently contacted us here at Glow. Latlaus Sky, made up of Brett and Abby Larson, have just completed their 14-track album "The End of Sorrow." While the album is a loose fictional narrative of loss, the questioning and sorrow is, like much fiction, from Brett's real life. He said to me—and I find truth in this—"It seems the stories we tell can sometimes come closer to us than the realities of fact. I have looked into the river of sorrow and my music is a search to follow this river to the sea."
Read MoreSome days, I am able to hear a song for what it is. When I do not wonder about the singer, Did she lose a baby? Does she know what this love is, this loss?
Read MoreWe are a narrative species. When Joseph was died and born, we were conscious of his narrative. The way we shaped it, intentionally and not. We were afraid that Joseph would become his story. That, in the telling, he would be reduced to a tidy, practiced recitation safe for mass consumption.
Read MoreThere is the moment before—
A candle, a warm glow, a dancing spit of light.
And there is after.
I learn the word fire. The word burn.
Read More"My relationship to Thor and my thinking about that time continue to evolve. Many people say you shouldn’t write a memoir until a lot of time has passed—say, fifteen or twenty years—so you have some distance from the events and from the person you were at the time. But what I wanted to convey was the immediacy of grief, and if I’d waited, I would have lost that." —'Ghostbelly' author Elizabeth Heineman
Read MoreBereaved parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion, and the other side of getting through this mess called grief.
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